15 July 2007

uncertainty

the past couple of years, i have felt that many things i took for granted as an undergrad, no longer hold up:
there is no such thing as happily ever after.
i cannot change the world.
love does not conquer all.
working hard is not always enough to get where you want to be.

is this part of getting older? i am no longer as idealistic, as hopeful, as faithful as i once was.

life post cairo is so much more confusing; questions to which i have no answers simply increase as the weeks go by. in other words, i have lost all certainty. the world is no longer only black or white. sometime ago i read a post asking how we measure our lives. as an undergrad, it was by the number of credits i took each semester, the new friends i met, the different jobs i had, the new places i explored. today, these measurements no longer hold. and if i use conventional norms as a measurement, i find myself sadly lacking. this would never have bothered me before. now it does.

3 comments:

Mar said...

I got a lot of funny, weird, random, and cool replies and reactions to that post.

ps. After meeting you, even for those brief hours at home before we would all wind down, I would hardly say that you are lacking?!?! (GASP) You have twice the charm as other random people who are supposedly "ahead," if they even are. pssssshh. :)

CK said...

You have twice the charm as other random people who are supposedly "ahead," if they even are. pssssshh. :)

ditto that!

md said...

thanks :)